To Kaiyun

Ok, kaiyun, i dun tink i will talk to you, lets resolve this before it gets too complicated and both of us will be hurt or sth. ok, i shall start with our frenship. i tink u shld noe dat i reallie cherished this frenship. i was reallie trying very hard to accept ur critic in expressoexpress. i shall agree dat some of the stuff u said were quite true. but tink about it, is it fair to me n minx by saying dat? i dunno. maybe u tink dats ok, n dat i shld not have reacted so strongly. but lemme tell you, if it was some other ppl toking about me 100 or even 1000 times worse, i reallie dun care. its the truth. but as i said b4, if i can criticize ppl, ppl can also criticize me back or sth. so if u criticize me, i could actually criticize u back. i dun tink i will lose u if i reallie wanna argue with you. but i chose not to. not dat i am trying to be wei3da4 or sth, just dat i reallie hope we could be frens. think about it, how many unhappy incidents happened btw me n u dis year? did i ever blog about any one negatively? i just wanna make my stand clear dat i am not so despo to have a fren dat i do wadeva u ask me to. i can live without you. i have alot of other frens. lets tok about char's incident. i wrote *speechless* and u criticize me, and write over it. so who is restricting who? i cant write wad i feel? yar, maybe xinxi is right, u trying to make me not to care so much about her, but if u seriously do, i dun tink u wld lemme tok about her everytime. lemme assume u wanna maintain class spirit. but lemme tell u, even if i dun write dat, charlene is alreadi so called left out in 204. if not, pt wun even tok about it. rite? maybe u wanna help her, but dun u find urself hypocritical? u said bad things about her behind her back and you dun dare to face her and say u dun lyk her. lemme tell you. i am not dat hypocritical. i can say wad i wan. take for instance dis blog i created. everyone can see it. i was shocked dat u tink i was dat someone. i am not dat self contradicting. it reallie pains me when u criticized me or who u tink dat someone is. lemme tell u, dat person is not me. even xinxi noes dat if i were to criticize you, i will write my name big big. how could u not understand my character. y would i be afraid when i alreadi write it in my blog? i dunno y u chose to side charlene. maybe u will say its not siding. but do u noe she called me a fool? she wrote dere, no one bothered to erase it. think about it. if someone write bad stuff about u and another person erase it, it is not helping her. y would ppl call me a fool? bcoz i am a fool? no. i can reflect more when i see wad ppl write about me. alot ppl did not write for charlene. dat denotes the same meaning as wad i wrote. its just dat i was the only one to pen it down. y cant u gif her a chance to reflect? giving her a chance to change? maybe when she see dat, she will bother to change? i admit my aim was not to make her do all those stuff, but i just wanna say dat wad harm would it cause to make dat word stay there? y do u have to all those stuff to hurt me? i tink u shld noe how critical i am about charlene, and i dun tink u tried to stop me b4. but why the sudden change? i reallie wanna noe. izzit bcoz i was the one hu wrote it? if it were some other ppl, wld u write over it. i reallie wanna noe. imagine if i told u it was not me who wrote dat, wad wld happen? would dat word be wrote over? but i dun c the point of me doing dat. do u reallie think i am in the wrong? actually, when i told u wad char called me, i tot u wld side me. but u din. u criticized me. u criticized a fren. if u were to say sorry or sth, i tink we wld still be frens. u dun understand me. do u reallie feel disgrace to have me as a fren? at least minx wld stand by my side when she see i am rite. even zhiying, rebecca, heather, zhouang, and alot of ppl sided with me. do u realise everytime someone say me, u wld just stand by the other party? maybe i am just this immature princess with pms. is dat wad i am to u? i have gave more to this frenship dan u n u criticise me. maybe dats wad i get for being good to a fren. i rmb u ask me dis question. if ur best fren did sth wrong, wld u defend her, and my ans was yes. but i dun tink dat is ur ans. everytime i do sth wrong, u wun stand by my side. you always take the people around you for granted. did you ever appreciate me at all? i ask some other people they say they can see that you dont appreciate me at all, you just take me like someone to call on when nobody is with you. i am very sick and tired of this. i want a friend who is willing to stand by me, not just call me when no one is with her. you always want to hang around with other people, i can see, but i nv sae anything about it. when you scold me, i apologise to you. but did you reflect on what you do? i am not always wrong. but i just accomodate you. do you ever realise that? or are you trying too hard to impress other people, and then think that i wont say anything bad about you? you think that i am very immature, buti think you are also about the same, if not worse than me. you always say that you are very mature and me and minx are very immature. please really REFLECT can? just because we treat you well and then you treat us like dummies doesnt mean we are childish enough to take all this crap ok?